Here, Now and Close.

Stills, 2023

This work explores the experience of an out of order loss close loved one, through a visual representation.

The first image explores the trauma and confusion; descending and drowning in grief. The world is turned upside down.

The second image explores the public side of grief – the way we honour and memorialise our loved ones. Dressed in black, the colour of traditional western mourning clothing, an unfired clay vessel is held, containing a Kowhai seedling, with ash representing cremains, distributed around the young plant. The clay and ash/cremains will go back into the ground to nurture the Kowhai – the cyclic essence of the natural world played out through the memorial tree.

The third image depicts the start of attempts to redraw the neural map for the lost loved one relationship and that relationship.